caffeinated

It has been suggested that I might be overly caffeinated rather than just having a cold. Lemuures might have to realise that 2 litres of diet cola and a largish bar of chocolate in a day might be a lot in the way of caffeine.


BEWARE OF CAFFEINE


tHIS COULD POSSIBLY BE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE LACK OF SLEEPINESS AT NIGHT TOO..

Look look look look

LOOK WHAT HAPPENS ........

when you don't have the QUD778PPO thingymajig going on.




SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM


Lemuures do know about how to deal with SPAM.


But have not yet pushed the right button.


!!

Shopping

Food shopping is about to commence.

A particular lemuure wonders if just buying one box of soya ice creams containing 3 of the aforesaid totally unhealthy crappy but scrumptious objects would perhaps be alright.


As long as there was no aquiring of the chocolate and crisps.

What is a feminist

I'm not sure anymore. Do women still use this term to describe someone who thinks there should be equality between the sexes. I mean ofcourse there should. On this planet why shouldn't there be. If there's not it's obviously a human devised inequality and one that men have put in place so that they can be boss in gender different situations.

An example of how much this affects some of them was shown by that outburst of bleating by that news guy at the BBC. Women start getting good jobs in the media, though not incidentally the very top jobs, and he's yelling that it's going to reduce men to the point where they're just unemployed sperm donors.

Is this meant to panic men? Make women feel sorry for them?

What?

Why did he even feel a need to comment on it at all. Men still seem to have most of the top jobs everywhere.


I mean the comment was beyond stupid. Is it just some kind of ego thing.


I have quite a few male friends who found the outburst odd but they weren't surprised. One said to me it's just the same as racist remarks along the same lines. Quite a lot of men really have a stake in maintaining a power unbalance.

But what do they think is going to happen if women have more of the top jobs. Nothing really I wouldn't have thought except that their own pay might be a bit less. Why are people like this guy seething with so much anger and coming out with remarks that are so strange. You work in the media petal, look round everywhere ... men are in charge if that's what's worrying you. A few media jobs go to women and in his mind this has men in the position of umemployed sperm donors.

Did he think that he was sending out a warning to young men. Watch it mate, or you'll be the one home sticking the nappies in the dustbin. Or, for the more ecologically correct, in the washing machine.

Really strange.


Well,though I haven't nswered my own question. I think I can safely say that this bloke is not a feminist.

Do many men really see women as the enemy like this. You know compartmentalising like this. Or is it partly his age.

Lunch

Wholemeal soya slice and soya cheese sandwich

and water.

Lemuures must remember

TOO MUCH CHOCOOLATE IS BAD FOR YOU

DITTO


CRISPIES


DITTO


SOYA ICED CREAMS



LLL

Lemuures love lettuce

Germaine Greer and that book about adolescent boys

I read an article about this over the weekend in one of the papers. It associated the book to some extent with the cases we've had here of female teachers having affairs with young pupils. I think the last boy was 14. The teacher was in her early thirties.

I just don't get why Germaine Greer would publish a book like that. I wrote about this before but took it down because I didn't think I knew enough about the book to comment, other than it appeared to be a rather unpleasant book. So, I've been reading around and have found out that most of the content is old paintings, though there are some photos in it. But the book does seem to be saying that this is kind of eye candy for women.

I'm sorry but in my mind people of that age shouldn't be sexualised for adults. I find it appalling. I don't care whether they are boys or girls. I also think Ms Greer has done young women/girls a lot of harm because surely if she's saying that it's ok for women to ogle boys of this age, the photo on the cover of the book was of a fifteen year old, then no one can complain when older men do the same to girls of that age.

I believe she was 60 or around that age when she brought this book out.


I don't get the attraction anyway. Why would grown women want to sit there ogling 14/15 year olds. That's for 14/15 year olds to do.


I just find it very very creepy and aggressive.

Took other post down

Because I may be wrong.


But then again ..... I may not be.

looking after lemuures

LEMUURES REALLY DO NEED TO LOOK AFTER THEMSELVES AND EAT WELL.


I AM OFCOURSE SPEAKING FOR ALL LEMUURES THIS TIME.

Even my ankles ache

Well. I suppose they will still love me. He's coming down with a cold too. My cold ending up like this is probably my own fault because of my unhealthy eating and refusing to rest. But even my ankles ache now. The headache and the earache have gone which is good. Ankleache is better than earache and a headache.

Well, I'm having a soya slice sandwich, a calcium tablet and a pain killer and then am going to try to get some sleep.

I have never had nails that have flaked like this before.

Do I own up to all this too. I really haven't looked after myself for a few months. Or do I just get myself together and get on with things.

Up

Can't sleep cause my head is still raw.


What do you do when people start really getting through to you. I've coped for a long time with putting most of my emotions into being protective of people and that's how I express my feelings generally. I protect other people.

Now I'm talking to people who talk directly about how they're feeling and I have to talk back. I'm really not used to it. I know how I feel but I'm finding it very hard to talk about, they don't. They want to know how I'm feeling. Usually this early on whatever I felt I wouldn't be telling the person I was dating about it. They tell me how they feel. It's difficult for me.

I like them very much and my emotions are getting very involved. But for me it's too early to talk about things like that. I'd normally just want to go out and get to know whoever I was dating and possibly get very slightly physically involved.

Today I realised that I'm not finding other people attractive in a romantic way anymore. It's just not figuring there. It was before I met these people. Infact it was noticeable a couple of hours before I met the guy when someone started talking to me in Sainsburys. I made my excuses and left there too. But I was aware that I found this person attractive. Don't think it'd even cross my mind if it happened now instead of when it did.

Unless something goes wrong it's obvious how things are going to go. They are probably the first people I haven't felt rather embarressed and awkward with when thinking about taking things further. We talked about that the day I spent hours with them and I had quite a lot of explaining to do. Not that someone else hadn't talked to him about it anyway before he even met me.

I knew that things would work out when we were saying goodbye before they left.

I love talking to them. And I do like the idea of being open with each other but I just find it hard to do. I tend to do things for people and protect them rather than talk about how I feel. I try to make things better for people.

I suppose I have to tell them.


Oh .. You know I hadn't even thought of that.


And I know why. I come from a family where to be open like that would be putting yourself in a position to be emotionally abused.

S'OK

Been and chatted on another board. The chat thing's great fun. Perhaps I should suggest it on this other board.



We'll see.


Part groans

Part laughs.



Have spoken to them again. Emotions are certainly coming into it here. And feeling for two people is very intense.

I'm a bit scared.

They have no right to be so flipping nice


But then I'm kind of glad that they are

Generally

Generally you can't tell much about a person by the way they look. I've met someone who looks like a very hippyish young Jim Morrison (from The Doors) who's a member of the BNP (British National Party) which is related to the National Front. I also have met someone who dresses in sports wear all the time and goes out with a goth woman.

I would be very worried by hate tattoos and swastikas but not by a lot of piercings and tattoos because I've met people with quite a few of those who are really pleasant people to be around.

feeling reasonable

Not feeling too bad now. I'm a bit sweaty and my head feels raw but I don't feel like I did. See if I can get some sleep.

Potters off

Potters off to see about A N T I - S P A M

Hip forums

Right think I'll join the hipforums or something so that I can talk about music. What are yer favourite songs and things like that. Mine change constantly. Classic rock: there're so many to choose from.

Will join soon.

And just have a chat or something.

Work

I need to get on and work. Feel rather depressed, I think I'm just so exhausted from the bug. Headache and earache have both gone now, though I'm a still a bit puffy and I'm feeling so tired and whoozy. Met someone else about half an hour ago who looked exhausted too, they said they were feeling tired out, and heard someone saying yesterday about how tired they were feeling. The person who was with them said maybe they needed to get some rest and get well.

Perhaps my bug's on the way out now though.

Earache gone .. headache here

This has been a difficult bug. I just feel so tired and achy. And I went out today. Spent the day by myself doing a bit of shopping. Know it was nervy shopping to some extent. I mean yesterday I bought some new clothes that I might even wear. A long purple based patchwork skirt and a purple rock festival t shirt. I generally buy my clothes second hand or indie market clothes. The clothes have got some good comments though so there you go .. if I don't wear them I can always hang them up on the wall.

Actually they are really arty and nice.

Bought some cheap but very nice jewellry today.

Have posted my three posts to da board but honestly I'm really not up to posting much at all.


Going to have dinner and try and get some rest again

I'm really tired

I'm going to try and get some sleep because I'm so tired. Absolutely exhausted. Earache has gone now but I'm just totally tired.

I'm glad they've gone away for a week. It gives me time to think. Not that how I feel is going to change but it gives me time to just relax more into it all.

Talked to them this evening, she's coming down with a cold, probably the one I've got I guess. This cold's exhausted me. I'm back at the computer after being asleep for three hours. I went to have a rest after typing in the first couple of lines here and just went to sleep.




I was sad when I came back this afternoon. Had spent a little time with someone who's here studying, she's pretty homesick and today she was so quiet. Thinking about this flu I'd imagine, her future and seeing her family and friends back home again because that's what she would be thinking about. She already thinks about and misses them a lot.

Wow

The colour is back



Lemuure remembers seeing English/US dictionary, though didn't read it, but can speak a little American:


The color is back


And hopes that the spelling is right.


Lemuures do know one American word and will use it.

What can I say

They're going away this weekend for a week visiting relatives and just generally having a break. Spent a few hours with them. Lots of chat, listening to music. I didn't bring anything by my favourite band with me and they didn't have anything either. (Snort)

They're going to phone but I'll miss them while they're so far away. I can't believe it's been such a short time since I first spoke to him.

We'll be apart for a while again soon because of moving. It's all to the good though as far as the future's concerned. We'll be close together.


We hugged and kissed before I left.


Times are so uncertain nowadays.

Still slightly poorly

Still slightly poorly and a bit puffy. Ear ache much better but still there and rather tired.

Lemuures know they should be eating healthily and are.



Generally.




I cannot speak for all lemuures

Ofcourse



And I feel a need to protest

AND WILL PROTEST


Blogger has removed the colour changing possibilities


IF THEY DON'T COME BACK SOON I WILL GO TO LIVEJOURNAL.

illness

I'm not feeling very well at the moment. On Handbag, UK forum, there was a thread about someone's partner going to football while the poster was feeling quite ill and she wasn't too sure how to feel about being left alone while she was feeling ill. Someone else said the same had happened to her while she was waiting in casualty.

I thought I wouldn't mind someone going out while I had a virus and temperature and was feeling ill but I would mind if I was stuck in casualty wih something minorish unless it was something like a concert that wouldn't be coming around again for some time. But something like a football match where they'd be going to the team's matches all season would be a definite no no if I was in casualty. Something quite bad or painful and they could stay regardless

I prefer being alone when I'm ill to be honest because then I can just chill out and rest and do what I want. I know other people like having people around.

Made me think a bit.

Poorly Lemuures

When Lemuures are poorly

They like to be left alone

(But not totally alone or they will sulk)



((AND NEVER FORGET))




They cannot post on message boards

but can run in and dab in a quick fifty in any post counter games they've spotted.



And can and will go out when they know they shouldn't.

(No, ofcourse I didn't. Well,actually I did but it was only for a few ..... hours)


Poorly lemuures are not very good patients.















I CANNOT SPEAK FOR ALL LEMUURES

OFCOURSE

Article in Real Magazine

I bought Real magazine today to read on the train and there was an article on poly relationships in it. Though the definition of poly relationships seems to be much narrower there than how I see them. I thought it seemed as if they were just writing about people who have open marriages or who sleep with more than one committed partner.

The article was titled Would You Let Your Husband Have A Girlfriend .... or something like that anyway. I thought well only if she was my girlfriend too.

The article was saying that with the way marriages break down and how people cheat maybe guilt free external relationships were the way forward.

I do know someone who is poly in this way after coming out of a long term lesbian relationship, she's bi and has a couple of serious type relationships going on. She's always described herself as poly.

She's really happy and it suits her.

I can't get my mind around it easily because I feel differently from her. But I'm sure not going to put her down for it, or anyone else. These people were adamant about using protection.

Which is certainly more than some cheating het people given the 1 in 25 report that was reported recently. If that's a true statistic just how many people are cheating. There can't be that many women who cheat, don't use protection and become pregnant. A lot of people cheating are men anyway and I'd think most women would be more careful than that. That did shock me to be honest. Not that I'm not unaware that people cheat but what shocked me was that these people weren't using protection and presumably went back to sleep with other people. If they're that careless I wouldn't have thought they'd've gone to be tested either.

post counter games

Though I have to admit to being a slightly naughty Lemuure and going to play on a certain board's post counter. Well, Lemuure's like profile and post counters especially when they're working and they notice when other people are playing games with them. Lemuure's can join in and will join in.

This board is really interesting with a hidden forum that you're meant to guess is there by people coming onto the board and then doing nothing for ages. And they play post counter games.


Is this the best board on the web?

flippin heck

I've still got this bug and it's gone way past my ear. I promise not to buy any more junk food because I think that's got a lot to do with it. Well, anyway it can't be making things any better.

Otherwise I guess tings are ok.


But have quite a headache at the moment.

Posting

It'll take about a week to post enough posts to get full access to post fully. Don't feel like doing anything much at the moment though.

Have been accepted at the other board too now. Will read quite a bit before posting. At least that's how I feel at the moment but maybe once I'm feeling a bit better I'll introduce myself. Don't feel like it right now though.

Think I'll take an extra pain killer and see if I can get some sleep.

Not feeling too good at the moment

I've got earache in my right ear. Think it's because of swelling due to a cold. The crappy eating stops here.

I'm not over the breakup yet but I've got to start sorting myself out a bit. Regardless of what's been said things were often really good. I mean the relationship was a lot better than quite a few relationships that I've seen. Am still finding it hard to believe it's over at times, but it is.

One board down

Will stop posting to the board that has just isn't going at the moment. I thought that it might encourage people to start posting but it hasn't. Wrote out long post that was about an article in Cosmo and should've got some replies though only three people and me read it so I guess in board terms no replies isn't bad. It took a lot of time though and if there's no discussion going on there really might as well go somewhere else. There's next to no posting new topics either.

I'm still limited to three posts on the other one but I've put my hand in the air and asked the question on that one now. Maybe I'll have to wait a bit longer though as possibly they've had trouble in the past and want to get to know you.


SHOUTS: I HAVE A BLOG.


Still haven't heard from the other one I'd PM'd. When I can talk to the people on the board I'm posting on I'll ask if I can post topics like I was posting on the one reply board. I don't really mind if people don't always answer but if they're not really talking anywhere else either it's not really going to get going.

I'm tired. Just going to have dinner. Can't discuss that as I've used up my three posts for today.


Still lemuures can go back to read and dream of the days of free posting.




FREEDOM FOR LEMUURES

Changes

Changes. Going through them bit by bit. Made my study decisions on what's going on globally at the moment and having listened to what other people have said and written both in IRL and on the net. Realised my own interests and then found other people's views and own interests helped me see the choices I have within what I think I'd like to be doing.

Wrong boards?????

I think I've probably chosen the wrong boards to post on if I want to just spend time chatting. It's not just me but they seems to be little in the way of posting on both of them. One poster's who's an admin on the 3 post board has come along and posted quite a lot but that's it. Can't say that it's just that their not replying to me because I'm new because they're not replying to her either on the whole. I'm sure there's a hidden forum on the other board because I kept on going back there and there were anons there but there was also one named poster that was there lots and my new post hadn't been looked at at all. Not much point if they're there but talking where you can't reach them.

I'm having technical problems on another board too and'll get in touch with the admin if they continue.

Avatars

Next step is to choose one of those. I've found a jumping cow, twirling lizard and a fluttering and revolving purple butterfly. All pretty good so far. The butterfly is sort of amazing and it's just possible I might choose that. Goes back to look at jumping cow again because that has possibilities too.


Or ofcourse there's the running catterpiller.



Will have to make a choice soon.

If the other board replies soon I can use all four ... a different avatar for each board.

Cosmo

Bought a copy of Cosmo today probably because it had an article about someone who survived the recent London bombings and who had been in some similiar position before. Haven't read it yet, will tomorrow. Interested me because although I wasn't caught up in the last bombings had been very close to two others in London in the past.

You think you must be the only one but then you find out you're not.

Stranger and stranger

Well, I've been back to the one answer board quite a few times and people are visiting it ... BUT they're not, it seems reading new posts on the board.

So, what's going on. Could be some bug on the board. I tested the view counter there and it appears to be working ok unlike another one I could mention and will. Maybe there's something going on there that you can't see cause it sure is strange.

Maybe lemuures are pretty good at snuffling out hidden posting possibilities.


Snuffle, snuffle, snuffle.

Hehehehe.

The profile viewer

Strange. It says that there's been two views of my profile. Heck, I've viewed it more times than that. Pout. If lemuures don't count on their own blogs it's a pretty sad state of affairs .. goes off to play on other people's profile viewers.



Returns because they don't seem to be working either.

adventuures on the net continued

I've been posting on the boards. Still only allowed my three posts on one board which I've used up.

Lemuures can post three posts and will post three posts.

There's been an answer on the other board too which is cool.

Haven't had a reply from the board I PM'd yet so maybe the woman hasn't checked her mail yet.

Wonder how many posts you get there.


Lemuures can dream.

Tired out

Went to rest while dinner was cooking and went to sleep so my dinner burnt. Hmm. Will cook something else cause I haven't eaten much or well today.

Looked back at the two small boards I joined that are interest related. Nothing much happening, can't answer where someone has welcomed me cause I'm still restricted to three posts a day. Will look round to find other boards that are busier so that I can join in. Out of the two boards one doesn't seem to be moving at all. Well, there's only been a couple of posts in days, the other one is slightly more active but not much, a post or so a day. And posting there doesn't seem to encourage anyone else to post. So, tomorrow I'll look for more general boards that are just chatty cause that'll do me as long as they're friendly. Will wait a few days to post on bigger UK board, read and get used to it first as it is a large board. Too tired to at the moment.

I'm feeling really tired but I'll go and cook some more dinner.

shopping

Bought a Neil Young cd in the Borders sale, only £3.99. Haven't heard it before though I know Heart Of Gold. Got a friend who just loves Neil Young's music and seeing the cd reminded me of her so I picked it up just to look at it and then thought that I'd like to hear it too. Will probably play it this evening.

I'm tired, got a cold and was up most of last night and the night before. Really must junk the junk food because it sure isn't helping with anything. Or most of it at least.

message boards

Have joined three and messaged the admin about joining another. I think with two of them there's going to be a time gap though between me and the other posters most of who appear to be in the US. One's a UK one and I've just been ok'd by the admin there and will post soon when I've read a bit more cause it's quite a big board and I don't know my way around too well.


Lemuures can post and will post though.


I have to say that I've been a bit disappointed though so far. No one has replied on the smaller boards but then with the time zone thing maybe they're all asleep and so not likely to post at the moment.

And the two of the blogs I was reading .. and enjoying .. have gone silent .. and I'm missing the bloggers already.


Goes off to do the shopping to take mind off cyberworld.

Limps off to do shopping to take mind off cyberworld.

And will blog!!!

Thought I might've broken a toe today after falling over but after buying a rather large supply of painkillers have found that the pain's gone away. Have also eaten rather a lot of junk food, in this case soya ice cream, partly because of the toe, a broken relationship and the reason why it broke up - according to the BBC teens tend to eat a lot of junk food at the end of a relationship, well, being an equal opportunities person I wasn't going to let a simple fact like it might make me feel really crappy get in the way there and at a rather more advanced age got stuck in too.

And, ofcourse, have started this blog.